This morning I went shopping in downtown Lausanne. As I was walking by a store front a feather flew right past me and landed on the ground. When I looked up I saw feathers falling everywhere. It made me think of my Uncle who passed away when I was 6. There is a story behind it, but it always seems when I need something I find a feather. It is almost like he is thinking of me.
This past week has been an interesting one for me. For one reason or another I find myself reflecting more on who I am and what I want. I have taken the steps to achieve my professional goals and I know I am on the right track. Now, after nearly 4 years of being along, I find myself wondering....is something missing?
It is easy to let life distract you from loneliness. There will always be bills to pay, laundry to do and assignments to turn in. I have learned the most dangerous time is the space in-between the distractions, the quiet moments when you let your guard down. These are the times when life catches up with you. When you find yourself walking down the street looking up a the sky as feathers cascade around you. When you realize you are ready to let the world stop spinning and open yourself up to the possibilities. When you see the feathers for the sky.
Maybe my Uncle was sending me a message that it's time. It might be time for me to stop being so afraid of the outcome. It is easier to be alone because you don't have to trust another person and depend on them. But being afraid is no way to live. People need people and I am starting to realize that I need my own person. I need to let go of the fear and fly. But with whom?
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