Out here on my own

"Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am
Do I fit in.
Make believin' is hard alone,
Out here on my own"

Being in another country far away from everyone you know can be a daunting prospect. Ever since I left I have been busy experiencing the world and adjusting to my new life. I haven't really had a moment of peace to myself until today. I took some time downtown and wandered the streets getting to know my new home. I watched parents walking their children, lovers holding hands, teenagers stalking the streets in groups. I think it was good for me to take a moment to absorb my new surroundings but it also allowed the reality to set in. I am getting to know people and creating new friends but no one here truly knows me. Do I even know me? I have spent so many years trying to achieve the next great thing I haven't really stop to examine the person I have become. Being strong is hard work but being vulnerable is even more difficult. I know how to present myself in a certain way and maintain distance but at some point I am going to have to let someone in. But who? I guess the adventures of this year will reveal themselves in due time. No use in trying to anticipate it like I do everything else.

"When I'm down and feelin' blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you"