Friday, January 13, 2012

The world is moving while I stand still

My life is great. I am moving in the right direction and living every moment as best as I can, but sometimes while I am in those amazing moments, reality grabs me by the shoulder and pulls me back.

Tonight I went downtown with some friends to a pub crawl and had an amazing time. I had an entire bar sing Happy Birthday to me (don't ask), I started my own club within a club at one place and I danced like there was literally no tomorrow. The thing is at one moment I found myself looking up and seeing what was really around me.

What I saw was that I was alone. Everyone was dancing just like me, but with each other. It was like one of those time lapse movies where I was standing still while everyone else was living their lives and moving in fast forward. Maybe it is because I was on my sixth beer or maybe it is because I am finally starting to realize that I can't do it all by myself anymore.

Being independent has been a quality about myself that I have held onto fiercely, sometimes to a fault. Relying on someone else for anything is far to frightening a prospect. My rule in life has been like everyone, but trust no one. I am starting to think I may have to jump both feet first and try to trust someone soon, otherwise I may be dancing by myself for far too long.


Metropolis - A New York City Timelapse from Will Boisture on Vimeo.

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